Saturday, May 23, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Lost

I've some how lost myself
Haven't a clue where to look
I've searched every place
even under the bridges I've burned
I'm always numb now
No feelings inside
If you look close within me
you will see all has died
I was once a happy person
with so much to give
Now I'm an empty shell
with no hope to live
Maybe someday I will find myself
hidden far away
For now I will live like this
until time has it's say
Haven't a clue where to look
I've searched every place
even under the bridges I've burned
I'm always numb now
No feelings inside
If you look close within me
you will see all has died
I was once a happy person
with so much to give
Now I'm an empty shell
with no hope to live
Maybe someday I will find myself
hidden far away
For now I will live like this
until time has it's say
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
In My Arms

I swear, I swear upon my life.
Oh I swear, I swear that I'll take your pain away.
And this I swear, that this day will quickly fade into night.
Your pain is to much to bear, throw it to me.
Your pain, your suffering, it should belong to me.
You are too good to suffer like you do, and you should,
You should be happy, and not so sad, throw it all away to me.
I wish to make this life transform, to be something better, something more.
I just want to bring you all together, you mean so much to me.
I want to keep you safe and happy.
I will protect you from all harm.
I will hold you in my warm, loving arms.
Please, please come to me, I want to bring you ecstasy.
This life has taken so much from you, and I want to give it back.
I want to hold you close, and to those who know, I swear I'll save you.
Save you from this nightmare we call life.
Look into the mirror and see your true reflection, see your beauty.
It's not your fault, my sweet heart.
All this time I've taken part in this crime.
I want to make amends for my actions.
To bring back the way we were.
Oh I swear, I swear that I'll take your pain away.
And this I swear, that this day will quickly fade into night.
Your pain is to much to bear, throw it to me.
Your pain, your suffering, it should belong to me.
You are too good to suffer like you do, and you should,
You should be happy, and not so sad, throw it all away to me.
I wish to make this life transform, to be something better, something more.
I just want to bring you all together, you mean so much to me.
I want to keep you safe and happy.
I will protect you from all harm.
I will hold you in my warm, loving arms.
Please, please come to me, I want to bring you ecstasy.
This life has taken so much from you, and I want to give it back.
I want to hold you close, and to those who know, I swear I'll save you.
Save you from this nightmare we call life.
Look into the mirror and see your true reflection, see your beauty.
It's not your fault, my sweet heart.
All this time I've taken part in this crime.
I want to make amends for my actions.
To bring back the way we were.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Love You Mom

Mother's day ....
Yes it has a hype,
Yes everybody is getting all hyper over it,
Yes everybody is expressing their love for their mothers,
Yet mom i am watching and just thinking....
Why i ain't doing that,
Why my words are un written,
Why the love of her is just so deep in my heart that why can't i express ??
So I speak....
Mom....
I wish you the Best on your Day!
Infact i wish you the best on each and every day that comes in your life !
May they Shine Bright and Beautifully!
May Smiles never end and Praise never ceases !
Know that what you do REALLY does mean alot to me!
Even if i appear not to take it to heart.
Even though my actions nore my words express what there is for you....
You are my Foundation!
You are my Dream maker!
You are my Friend and yes one of the Best's one!
You are the Fighter,
And yes you are my Protector ....
You are the Voice of Reason when neccessary!
You show to me the Paths we can take to grow
You are the Nuturing one that helps Shape my mind.
You help me to be so much more then i could ever think of....
Like a garden that Blossoms
so does your Love for me.
I can only go forward with me Dreams
Because i have the Power of you behind me.
When the fogs rolls in and i become Lost
You will always be there with the Light that finds us
No Matter What.
And yes that happens alot,
Atleast in my life....
You Empower me.
You Teach me.
You Shield me.
You are Unconditional Love at the Purest,
Your love superceeds the love of others which was never there for me i guess,
But alteast you were always there for me,
And you still are....
Mom relationships may come and go
as i travel on the Journey known as Life
But as my Mother...
You will Always Remain Forever in my Heart.
And yes i repeat,
Its not just about today,
My love for you is always there....
Per, i guess i am never the expressing sort....
Yes it has a hype,
Yes everybody is getting all hyper over it,
Yes everybody is expressing their love for their mothers,
Yet mom i am watching and just thinking....
Why i ain't doing that,
Why my words are un written,
Why the love of her is just so deep in my heart that why can't i express ??
So I speak....
Mom....
I wish you the Best on your Day!
Infact i wish you the best on each and every day that comes in your life !
May they Shine Bright and Beautifully!
May Smiles never end and Praise never ceases !
Know that what you do REALLY does mean alot to me!
Even if i appear not to take it to heart.
Even though my actions nore my words express what there is for you....
You are my Foundation!
You are my Dream maker!
You are my Friend and yes one of the Best's one!
You are the Fighter,
And yes you are my Protector ....
You are the Voice of Reason when neccessary!
You show to me the Paths we can take to grow
You are the Nuturing one that helps Shape my mind.
You help me to be so much more then i could ever think of....
Like a garden that Blossoms
so does your Love for me.
I can only go forward with me Dreams
Because i have the Power of you behind me.
When the fogs rolls in and i become Lost
You will always be there with the Light that finds us
No Matter What.
And yes that happens alot,
Atleast in my life....
You Empower me.
You Teach me.
You Shield me.
You are Unconditional Love at the Purest,
Your love superceeds the love of others which was never there for me i guess,
But alteast you were always there for me,
And you still are....
Mom relationships may come and go
as i travel on the Journey known as Life
But as my Mother...
You will Always Remain Forever in my Heart.
And yes i repeat,
Its not just about today,
My love for you is always there....
Per, i guess i am never the expressing sort....
Friday, May 8, 2009
Me, Myself and I

My little private mind,
I'd always keep on to my own.
Holding on to myself,
Reaching not to anyone.
Screams no more,
Just sulk within the sullen face.
The growing cold within,
Surrounds the mind, changing every little thing.
No more S.O.S,
No more asking for help.
Even if you're gone,
Away from my disgusting self,
There's always one thing I'd have on my own;
Me, myself and I.
All three of them,
Are the only key to my secured mind.
The only ones who can understand it.
Yeah, I still have me, myself and I.
I'd always keep on to my own.
Holding on to myself,
Reaching not to anyone.
Screams no more,
Just sulk within the sullen face.
The growing cold within,
Surrounds the mind, changing every little thing.
No more S.O.S,
No more asking for help.
Even if you're gone,
Away from my disgusting self,
There's always one thing I'd have on my own;
Me, myself and I.
All three of them,
Are the only key to my secured mind.
The only ones who can understand it.
Yeah, I still have me, myself and I.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
I'll Forget
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Happy Birthday - 1
Well, birthdays are merely symbolic of how another year has gone by and how little we've grown. No matter how desperate we are that someday a better self will emerge, with each flicker of the candles on the cake, we know it's not to be, that for the rest of our sad, wretched pathetic lives, this is who we are to the bitter end. Inevitably, irrevocably; happy birthday? No such thing.
But Still today is my day !!
But Still today is my day !!











