I feel so alone

With people all around me,

I still feel so alone...

With people always there for me,

My heart feels as cold as stone...

I am...

Alone...

After what seemed to very long,

My wishes all came true...

But it was only for awhile,

And it was all because of you...

I am...

Blue...

Then my life did again fall apart,

I lost you,

I lost my family,

And I again did lose my heart...

I am...

Apart...

I will not be distant,

I will be strong,

I will not just run away,

I will stay here for long...

I am...

Strong...

No matter what it does to me,

I want you to be happy,

I want you to feel free,

To be...

© Ubaid Ullah Ahmed

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Cerebral masks

Truth, mystery; lies,

Facts, all are blurred

Hidden behind the cerebral masks

Khaaq se bane tum

Khaaq se bane hum

Ajab yeh zamane ka dastoor hai

Chehron ke nakshay hi badal gaye

© Ubaid Ullah Ahmed 

(photography, manipulation & english verse)

& 

Purple 

(urdu verse)

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Tu Nishaan-e-Azm-e-Alishan

Tu Nishaan-e-Azm-e-Alishan...

 Someday

Inshallah

Yet again 14th of August is here... things are becoming worse day by day... It is no more a country which our Quaid dreamt of nor the ideology is left... All what left is hopeless people, shattered dreams, agonizing pain, hunger, suffering, destructions, politics and a sinking voyage... If we say it's our fault it won't be wrong but to say destroying it our desire then this would be a lie... Time heals, but for our country tch tch the definition of healing has to be redefined... 

But I must say, the thing which separates us from majority is that whenever a crisis come we stand all together... Yet I see this passion fading too...
I do not know what others desire to say but I say ay watan tujh per aaj bhi utni hi jaan kurbaan jitni pehley thi... and with the core of my heart I desire to say

"PAKISTAN

To be with you in these explosions
To be with you in the time of crisis
To be with you in these disasters
Is not a decision which is forced upon me
It is what I desire, I choose
To see this PROMINENT GREEN standing out its color
To see the prominent green in front of my eyes
To see our country, our flag and its colors stand out
Stand out even in the time of darkness....

To be a proud Pakistani

To wish you Azadi Mubarik"

Though I know I shouldn't end it with negativity per

Pani main doob rahi hai meri dharti aye Arz-e-Watan

Main kis zubaan sey kahun "Azadi Mubarak"


So lets pray for a better Pakistan, for better US... Pray that the hardships end and all which remains after that a Pakistan which rises, which motivates, which indulges no pain.
Lets pray for Pakistan not because we live here but because it lives in our heart and soul... We as a nation have come out of lots of disasters so why not unite again and pull this one heck of beautiful ship out of the storm and into the wide oceans sailing as never before...

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Pakistan Zindabad - II

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Pakistan Zindabad - I

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Broken Wings

With broken wings and feathers torn.

A tear in each blind eye,

Both legs disjointed, skin is flaming...

And I attempt to fly.

Looking below, to feel for your presence.

I'm hoping to find you there...

Beginning to fall, dying in flight,

I go whizzing past your ear,

See me?

Hear me?

Do you even care?

In the earth I shed my sins..

Screaming in the fire...

Soon I shall emerge again,

Glorious, from the pyre...

Your bitter cold, it cannot freeze me...

Yes am a bastard,

But my blazing flames will encompass you

And for evermore, together we shall be... 

© Ubaid Ullah Ahmed


 

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Tear me apart

I’m torn so deep inside,
There is no spirit to help me guide.
I love you were the last words said,
But now my soul is left for dead.
Tear me apart and show the rest,
My pain is just as you guessed.
I’m fallen and I’m tired,
Eternal sleep is desired,
I’m so torn apart,
Nothing can stop my bleeding heart.
I’m so hurt and I’m so lost,
I never knew this would be the cost.
Now I’m bleeding and losing air,
It would be easier if I knew you didn’t care.
Just take away my life support,
Please, it’s my last resort.
Quit telling me these lies,
Just start saying your goodbyes.
I’m torn apart; I’m tired of crying,
Don’t add to the flames, I’m already dying.
Now I’m just fading, there’s nothing left,
For life, I’m bereft.

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Happy Independence Day

Happy independence day to the all Pakistanis out there
PAKISTAN ZINDABAD!!!

(Read the text on the blog BEEP BEEP ITS ME....)

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Pakistan Zindabad

Forget the time of distress, but never forget what they tought you....
PAKISTAN ZINDABAD

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Broken

I'm sitting by my bedroom window,
Wishing someone were there.
I softly sing broken by lifehouse,
Wishing someone would hear.

But wishing is for fairy tales,
Let's check back into life.
When others waste time wishing
Is when I pick up my knife.

I slash and cut and tear and rip
Until I finally bleed.
Then cover it up secretly,
With my jacket sleeve.

Secretly, I emphasize
Because no one knows about me.
They all see me as the happy friend
Without a problem standing.

I smile for them, so they don't frown.
Happiness is "contagious".
But if that was true, then why is it
That I'm not advantageous?

But I do have just one wish,
Just some wild dream...
That someone will come and realize
I'm not as happy as I seem.

That person never comes, of course,
As I have forever known.
So I sit back, silently screaming,
Waiting for my scars to show....

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I Am

I'm the whisper without meaning, the promise that isn't worth keeping;
I'm a tear without weeping, a guardian whilst you are sleeping,
I'm the thorn without a rose, the invisible ink when writing prose,
I'm your little albatross - I'm the best friend you chose.

I'm a poison without an antidote, I'm a lost preacher without any hope;
I'm a noose without rope, I'm the medication to help you cope,
I'm your melody without sound, I'm an unclaimed item in your lost & found,
I'm your unapparent sweetheart - to which you are bound.

I'm perfume without a smell, I'm your turtle without the shell;
I'm a voice outside your mind, I'm fire without the hell,
I'm beauty without appeal, I'm make-believe without being surreal,
I'm the one you lost - but I'm the peace you feel.

I am what i am
Ubeee

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Me, Myself and I

My little private mind,
I'd always keep on to my own.
Holding on to myself,
Reaching not to anyone.

Screams no more,
Just sulk within the sullen face.
The growing cold within,
Surrounds the mind, changing every little thing.

No more S.O.S,
No more asking for help.

Even if you're gone,
Away from my disgusting self,
There's always one thing I'd have on my own;
Me, myself and I.

All three of them,
Are the only key to my secured mind.
The only ones who can understand it.

Yeah, I still have me, myself and I.

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I'll Forget

Someday I'll forget the color of your eyes, the sound of your voice will be unfamiliar. Someday I'll forget that I once loved you, the feelings will have faded, someday I'll forget.

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Blue Miracle

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Now That You're Gone

Now that you’re gone,
Life is like a barren piece of land,
Unkempt and unattended for,
Overgrown with tall grass,
Which holds neither beauty nor meaning.

Now that you’re gone,
Happiness is like an empty feeling of elation,
Unwanted and uncared for,
Coupled with hollow laughter,
Which brings neither joy nor relief.

Now that you’re gone,
Sorrow is like a vast dark cloud,
Hovering and hanging over,
Coupled with racking sobs,
Which attend to neither grief nor do they relieve.

Now that you’re gone,
Hopes and dreams are like distant objects,
No longer remembered and wished for,
Covered with a heavy cloth,
Neither to be lifted nor moved again.

Poetry by Siras

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Angel In Hell

The fires catch you in the faults
Roar right through the cracks
Flames burn through both skin and bones
No one may drag your back

The gates of wrought black iron
Lit by bonfires within
Feel the burning all around you
Reap the rewards of your sins

Do you feel one drop of remorse?
No—then, perhaps a hint of fear?

Well…
Welcome to Hell!
Enjoy your stay,
You’ll fit right in down here.

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When i'll be gone

In Far or distant Future,
Or in the days too much near,
When i will not be here,
Please do not let my grave spare ...

Just come to my grace there,
And sprinkle your tears,
Do not go back just because of fear,
To my unaudioable voice you must hear...

I must be waiting for you,
For my relations that were true,
I will be hearing you too,
But will never say harsh words to you ...

Just talk to me for making me happy,
Remember me as a gone friend,
A friend who was crazy,
A friend who was fun ...

Remember my habbits a little bit crimsy,
Use to disturb you when you were busy,
Use to lighten up your mood when you were dismay,
Just do remember me once for the sake of remembering ...

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Idle Seashore of Mind

Sit in reverie, and watch the changing color of the waves that break upon the idle seashore of the mind

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Pakistan Day

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Can i be an angel ?

Can I be an angel?

And bring joy to one's heart.
Delight one's soul.
Wipe one's tears.
Carry one while flying around,
And flap my wings up sky high.

Can I be an angel?

I want to fly.
I want to have wings and cover myself when I need it.

So I don't need your arms to cover my tears.
So I can be fine, without you being around.
So I can be fine, alone on my own again.
So you will be fine, without me bugging you.

"Angels don't lie."

True, that there's no denying,
But I can't help,
Seeing you suffering,
As me, bothering.

You're the angel,
The kindest angel.

But you can leave me alone, now,
Because I'll try to be strong, no cry.

So can I be your angel, now?

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