16 - She fell in love

Skin as soft as velvet and lips as red as a blooming rose. Her voice sweet as a bird singing in the rain. Confident, with an aim in her mind, to actually be someone, to fulfill the expectations of all the people who cared. But then, she too fell in love...

© Ubaid Ullah Ahmed

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14 - Waiting for an end

"Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It’s out of my control

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I want to do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sitting in this messy room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn’t so"

- Linkin Park

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08 - Love you more

Love is weird, weird indeed. I cling, I hurt, I scream just because of it.

Somehow the more you, put me through,

The more it makes me want to come back to you,

The more I try to push it away,

The more it makes me addicted of you,

I say that I hate you,

But I know the intensity of pain,

It just makes me love you more.

I scream, I cling...

I know it's sad but it's making me happy...

 © Ubaid Ullah Ahmed

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06 - Stay

Sometimes its morning and I do not let the light come in to my life. You have caused such darkness in my life that I sit in a corner waiting for death to take me away.

The Still night slowly grows,

From the dark places of your heart,

Towards me...

I try to crawl towards the light,

I might have taken a step into it,

And stopped

But I heard the voice,

Whispering,

Pushing me,

Towards my silent corner,

Saying; "stay, stay"

© Ubaid Ullah Ahmed

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04 - L.O.V.E

Why did I have to engrave those four letters in my heart and soul? It messed me up... I HATE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO ME YOU FOUR LETTERS OF AGONY. I hate you in my words, I hate you in my sorrow, I hate you in my sleep and I'll hate you forever.

© Ubaid Ullah Ahmed

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Tear me apart

I’m torn so deep inside,
There is no spirit to help me guide.
I love you were the last words said,
But now my soul is left for dead.
Tear me apart and show the rest,
My pain is just as you guessed.
I’m fallen and I’m tired,
Eternal sleep is desired,
I’m so torn apart,
Nothing can stop my bleeding heart.
I’m so hurt and I’m so lost,
I never knew this would be the cost.
Now I’m bleeding and losing air,
It would be easier if I knew you didn’t care.
Just take away my life support,
Please, it’s my last resort.
Quit telling me these lies,
Just start saying your goodbyes.
I’m torn apart; I’m tired of crying,
Don’t add to the flames, I’m already dying.
Now I’m just fading, there’s nothing left,
For life, I’m bereft.

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Broken

I'm sitting by my bedroom window,
Wishing someone were there.
I softly sing broken by lifehouse,
Wishing someone would hear.

But wishing is for fairy tales,
Let's check back into life.
When others waste time wishing
Is when I pick up my knife.

I slash and cut and tear and rip
Until I finally bleed.
Then cover it up secretly,
With my jacket sleeve.

Secretly, I emphasize
Because no one knows about me.
They all see me as the happy friend
Without a problem standing.

I smile for them, so they don't frown.
Happiness is "contagious".
But if that was true, then why is it
That I'm not advantageous?

But I do have just one wish,
Just some wild dream...
That someone will come and realize
I'm not as happy as I seem.

That person never comes, of course,
As I have forever known.
So I sit back, silently screaming,
Waiting for my scars to show....

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Heal me from all this sorrow

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Turn Away

Yea, you can turn around,
Away from my sight,
Away from my reach.

We both know we'll survive without each other,
We both know nothing'll change even without each other.

Just like now,
I'm not by your side.
Nor you too,
Aren't by my side.

We're both still breathing, aren't we?

We're not suffocating!

I'm fine,
There's nothing but emptiness in my eyes.
Nothing bad you'd see,
Nothing good that you'd see.

I'm just balanced.

Isn't that good enough for you?

So you can turn away now,
Walk away from me,
Your back facing me.
I'll turn my back once you do that too,
So we'll be both fine,
Acting like strangers just like now.

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I'll Forget

Someday I'll forget the color of your eyes, the sound of your voice will be unfamiliar. Someday I'll forget that I once loved you, the feelings will have faded, someday I'll forget.

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I miss you

I miss you
It's all I have to say
You're missing
I thought its better that way
But it kills me
And I can't fight this reliance
I'm drowning here
Amid this sick, strange silence
I need you
To tell you what I feel
To hear you
And remember what is real
When we said nothing
But it said so much
When we ran away
To get in touch
I feel you here
So lost inside me
I need you now
Or I'll fall apart completely
I miss myself
That piece you still hold
This space is hollow
Leaves me so cold
I can't forget you
I never will
The way you changed me
Because I miss you still...

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Now That You're Gone

Now that you’re gone,
Life is like a barren piece of land,
Unkempt and unattended for,
Overgrown with tall grass,
Which holds neither beauty nor meaning.

Now that you’re gone,
Happiness is like an empty feeling of elation,
Unwanted and uncared for,
Coupled with hollow laughter,
Which brings neither joy nor relief.

Now that you’re gone,
Sorrow is like a vast dark cloud,
Hovering and hanging over,
Coupled with racking sobs,
Which attend to neither grief nor do they relieve.

Now that you’re gone,
Hopes and dreams are like distant objects,
No longer remembered and wished for,
Covered with a heavy cloth,
Neither to be lifted nor moved again.

Poetry by Siras

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Can i be an angel ?

Can I be an angel?

And bring joy to one's heart.
Delight one's soul.
Wipe one's tears.
Carry one while flying around,
And flap my wings up sky high.

Can I be an angel?

I want to fly.
I want to have wings and cover myself when I need it.

So I don't need your arms to cover my tears.
So I can be fine, without you being around.
So I can be fine, alone on my own again.
So you will be fine, without me bugging you.

"Angels don't lie."

True, that there's no denying,
But I can't help,
Seeing you suffering,
As me, bothering.

You're the angel,
The kindest angel.

But you can leave me alone, now,
Because I'll try to be strong, no cry.

So can I be your angel, now?

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Walking in the rain....

I love walking in the rain coz no one can see my tears......

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Caged Bird

How high will i have to fly,
Before i can no longer see you,

You are so far away
It may get easier if i turn my eyes away
But I want to always keep gazing at you from somewhere
Because there is no way i can forget you...

I can do nothing,
But I look up at the sky,
Just like a caged bird...

I wander about aimlessly,
looking for a window
I want to see you right now because i love you,
I miss you...

Although i want to run away because i am afraid of being hurt,
But even if my wings get caught by things that do not wish me to be near you,
I will still look for you,
because you are the one i care for,
Even to the point of tears,

How high will i have to fly
Before i can not feel the way i feel right now...

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